I am having major body image issues this week.
Mostly because I can’t stop eating. And crying. And eating because I’m crying. And crying because I’m eating.
Let’s put this in perspective though: People gotta eat. And ladies get PMS, and sometimes that PMS makes us batshit. *shrug*
I’m just eating the bad stuff. ALL the bad stuff. And it’s delicious, but I feel like poo. I’m trying to recognize that this all makes me feel like garbage so that I stop. But part of me is like “Quite frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.” And then I’m a bitch to myself and glare at my body in the mirror while thinking mean thoughts.
I can say things like “Well, no more! I am wonderful! And I’m hot! And I’m beautiful no matter what!” But I don’t believe myself this week and that’s because my inside feels like garbage and the outside is starting to reflect that.
So what I’m proposing is that I hold myself accountable for my actions (mainly the action of continually buying Sour Cream and Bacon chips every five minutes) and have you guys hold me accountable as well.
I am going to make a more active effort.
And I’ll be marking my progress here and Instagram likely.
I’ll talk more next week about this, ideas are still circling.
But for now, keep moving forward and if you are like me, stop believing the bad stuff, start eating the good stuff, and put down the chips, man.
Constant vigilance!
That dog is my spirit animal.
The Deranged Librarian 
KEEP LOVING YOURSELF THROUGH IT!!!!!! Do you know how many times I binged last year DURING my self-love challenge? In 365 days, I probably binged about 200 days. Did that stop me from injecting love into my mind while I was binging?? NOPE!!! Trade in your feelings of guilt and sadness for feelings of self-love and acceptance the next time you pig out on junk food… you are doing the best you can with all this negative energy swirling around this dense world… so if your soul needs to find comfort and love at the end of the day in a bag of chips or pint of ice cream, so be it!! That’s ok!!! We are warriors and we can do as we wish!!! But as you change your thoughts, you’ll slowly be guided to other comforts that are a lot less toxic for you – namely the fountain of self-love that resides within you. ā„
PS. I lost (and have kept off) 25 lbs last year doing nothing but loving myself through my binges……. š you got this sista!!! ā„ā„ā„
Haha I’m working on it! I’m trying to recognize that while the food tastes delicious, it makes my body feel like a garbage bin afterwords. I might try clean eating this summer and see what happens! Whether or not it helps centre things or not!
I did use my affirmations while this was happening but there wasn’t a need for them really, I would just sigh and think “Well, you may be mighty, and eating a whole bag of chips seems like a terrible plan, but who cares? I want them and that’s all that matters. Yum yum yum” haha I suppose that acceptance was enough! haha