Brave–Rose McGowan

This is one of those books that I shove at everyone I meet telling them they need to read it. 

Rose spoke with so much love and honesty, and I love how she peeled back the face of Hollywood and ripped into people that deserved it and told her own story without embellishment. There was so much content to sift through and feel and the one thing that stuck out to me (and I’m sure a lot of people) was about her trauma with Harvey Weinstein and the aftermath of dealing with that and how she move forward. 

Mostly with help from others and also with now trying to take him down. Which is commendable as fuck.

What I remember from reading this is that people blamed Marilyn Manson for her dark turn, etc etc. And piecing things together with what she’s said about him (that he was kind and helped her through her darkest time) and from reading things on-line about their relationship and painting that picture in my head, their past relationship feels lovely and I’m very glad she had someone there who was kind and helped her.

If you remember, I also read Marilyn Mansons book, which was jarring but interesting. So to read those two books within the same year and have them talk about each other and things that happened, once you know about the trauma then it all is like a very big  “Ohhhhh this all makes sense.” moment.

I just love her. I always have.

She tells it like it is. 

And it’s dark.

I wanted to hug her and cry with her and fight with her. 

I still do. 

She’s a smart and brilliant human who deserves more than she ever got. 

I loved her story-telling, she really brings you into her heart and the moment. 

And it hurts. It all fucking hurts. 

Constant vigilance.

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The Long Hard Road Out of Hell–Marilyn Manson

“What the fuck did I get myself into?”

This is the thought that came up the most when I read this book. 

Look, I know who Marilyn Manson is. I’ve heard some of his music, I’ve read stories about what the fuck he gets into. I know he has beef with Justin Beiber about some t-shirts. 

I don’t know why I know that but I do. 

I know he was married to Dita Von Teese (who I adore.), dated Rose McGowan, and that he’s in general a pretty fucking weird guy. 

I didn’t realize how gross he was. 

This book was traumatizing in its brilliance, but also just gross because of gross things he did. He would scare me every other page with a startling pictures. Which I’m betting was the point. This guy is smart as hell and clever as a whip. And yes, for a while he was using his powers for evil and not good. But he took a long journey back to us (I’m sure he would resent that statement. Because who is “us”? The human race?)  and he’s finally becoming a human being. 

I think.

I don’t know.

This book was super messed up. His stories of his golden ages were really fucked up. As one would expect. 

And then he would hit you with a story of how it hurts that people would harm themselves or others in his name. And you’re like ‘You poor soul, let me hold you.”. 

Really think about it before you read this book. I didn’t . And I’m both worse and better for it.

It was intelligently thought out and executed in it’s contrasting unnerving you and making you love him at the same time.  

Constant vigilance.

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